Height Check Drama… don’t put that on me…

How tall is your avatar? I obsess about my own avatar’s dimensions, but when was the last time I banned or ejected you for yours? I will offer ‘unsolicited advice’ to bloggers who are showing off fashion if they do so on badly proportioned shapes – but I don’t “height police” anyone…

Notice the height thing on the shape says 1.49m – that is Agent Height. The prim is 1.651, or 5’5″.
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Agent height is just the height to your eyes, by the way – I used to give out a free scripted height meter – and I used a formula to fill in the rest. But of course this was flawed. As I learned how shapes work, I realized that many dials will alter the distance from your eyeline to the top of your head. That is why you just see a regular prim next to me here.

An alt of mine with the same height was recently auto-banned out of a sim for being “too short”.

People tell me the folks like me who have “too-scale” avatars are ‘height pushy’ (they use a less polite term) or ‘height police’… but we’re not the ones banning folks for having a height that, at 5’5″, is actually taller than many of us are in real life.

Furthermore, note that my avatar has a rather large bosom. True of both this alt and my usual avatar. I know that. I’m sure everyone who sees me in SL also notices it. So… consider that another flaw of automated ban systems… No child has a bosom like that.

So don’t ever go calling supposedly ‘short’ avatars the ones with an attitude issue in SL… We’re not the ones giving other people trouble for no rational reason.

Height Ejector: You have been teleported home because your avatar is less than 1.5 meters (5 feet) tall according to its bounding box information. We do this in order to prevent child avatars …

Please be aware that some viewers report height differently in their appearance editors. If you are using the Linden viewer, your height would need to be at least 1.5 meters (5 feet) tall according to its appearance editor. For Firestorm and some of the other viewers, at least 1.7 meters (5 feet, 7 inches). Also ensure there is nothing childlike about your avatar’s appearance.

“Police” – that word means enforcement. So don’t dare call people who have a different shape than you the ‘height police’ when they aren’t doing you any harm, especially if you happen to be one of these places banning people…

As to the actual venue – it wasn’t a loss. Once I read where I was tossed out of. This was a day where I was bored and teleporting to ‘green dots’ just to see if I could find a new hangout or two and I managed to land in a male only race-exploitation sex club… So yeah… no loss for me. But the rationale bugs me… they actually HAD reasons to toss me, but this wasn’t one of them.

They named a Kink & D/s sim for my Real Life religion – offensive?

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Location of this pic:

http://maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Rasta/116/99/22

Consider this analogy:

Says it is D/s inspired. If I got a sim and named it ‘Jew’ and made it a place for Southern Biker gang RP, would that be offensive? Yes. But would it be offensive enough to get pulled? Think on that.

I use that analogy because ‘Southern Biker Gang RP’ is not offensive by itself. D/s and Kink people are perfectly legitimate roleplays in Second Life. I don’t get them or agree with them, but I accept them and accept that people should have a space to self explore themes of importance to them as long as it is not hateful to others.

It is the mix I am trying to get across in that analogy… If you took a theme that is way out of step with a real world faith community, and named it after that community… isn’t that crossing a line?

Let alone that if you names a sim ‘Jew’ or ‘Muslim’ or ‘Catholic’ it would and should get heightened scrutiny…

How should I act over this. I know how I feel over it.

This is not what Rasta is about. In fact its pretty much in opposition to what Rasta is.

Now for contrast look at this sim:

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Not only do I not mind this one, I kind of want to get a Linden Home here. Except it turns out this is just a park sim and the homes in the background there are all just across the sim border.

http://maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Rastas/96/38/41

Why the difference? This second place is neutral in tone. No reference to any theme in the sim itself. And as a park sim, a place that is named for a real world religious community cannot get ‘messed with’ by people with bad intent or lack of knowledge.

I could actually feel a sense of comfort if I won the Linden Home lottery and got a spot bordering there.

 

And yes I know that as I am a sometimes SL Nudist people will wonder why I am objecting to a sim with the above mixed themes. But again I’m not objecting to the themes – I’m objecting to them being placed within the specific context of a sim named for my religion.

PS: Comments from random bigots pointing out how they could ‘find anything to get offended about’ will be deleted for the bigoted spam that they are…

New Graphics Preferences Now Help Auto-hide Laggy People

Hiding those laggy people by default will soon be common in Second Life, thanks to the new Second Life QuickGraphics Viewer version 4.0.2.310127 release that came today:

This is one of the beta test viewers, not the default. But this feature will hit the default soon.

Look for “Maximum Complexity”.
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This is a stand in for Avatar Draw Weight – which was the replacement to ARC. Draw Weight uses math based on how taxing to render and how taxing on SL something is.

My iMac wants this to be set to 60,000. In your average SL club, the other people range from 150000 to 450000…

My top end 2013 Macbook Pro with an advanced graphics card also wants to use 60,000. So it looks like a lot of people in Second Life are going to start vanishing from people’s screens pretty soon, if 60,000 is always the default. By contrast I’ve heard the usual recommendation to be 120,000 to 150,000 for a person with ‘normal graphics’ on a mid-range recent computer.

Every time you change something worn, a little popup will let you know your new Avatar Rendering Complexity:

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Clicking that will bring up a page explaining what Avatar Rendering Complexity is all about (you must be logged in to Second Life in your web browser or that link comes back with an Authentication Failure). Note that I am getting only 22,193 there, that is with booN mesh dreadlocks, the Belleza Freya Mesh body, and a few items as well. You can get these numbers to be low lag if you are militant about managing your own lag.

If you want to be sure you don’t end up being one of the folks that everybody else cannot see, read my post on How to NOT buy bad stuff in SL.

In the debug settings, this slider is found under renderavatarmaxComplexity if you want to enter a manual figure (the slider is really wild, and its hard to get a round number – which will drive semi-OCD people nuts… so that debug setting is how you make it an ‘even’ number.

This ties in with RenderAvatarMaxNonImpostors which is the number of avatars you will render regardless of how complex they are. Default on this seems to be from 8 to 12.

There is also a new display over you head when you flip on:

Advanced -> Performance Tools -> Show avatar complexity Information

(That is how they case it… S and I in cap… I don’t know why…)

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The wiki page says:

This displays four values as floating text above each avatar:

  • Complexity – The numerical complexity score of the avatar.
  • Rank –  How close the avatar is to your camera. The closest is “1”, next closest is “2”, etc…
  • Attachment surface area, in square meters – This value can, uncommonly, cause an avatar to be shown as a solid-color impostor.
  • Attachment size, in kilobytes – This value can also cause an avatar to be shown as a solid-color impostor, if it is high enough.

Please remember again that to view this webpage from outside of Second Life you need to log into Second Life’s website.

Here is what happens in a crowd of people when some of them are too laggy:

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And another InfoHub:

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Yes that dude to the right is over 158,000,000 complexity. Even hidden like this I crashed a half dozen times trying to get this image…

The advice from that experience is: Keep people who have become blobs at range. Don’t stand too close… or your system won’t be able to handle it…

While I was on the other side of the infoHub I was just fine. My crashes happened when I tried to get close to the skirt there… her avatar was also insanely complex…
– I managed to render her a few times when coming back from crashes. Which also tells me that it takes SL a moment to flip this stuff on…

Oh and she’s listed as rank 8… higher rank means further away from camera, not from YOU. Which is funny because I should have been rank 9 in this if she was rank 8… so I guess it needs some tweaking still.

Side note on proportions: If you have a kinky avatar and your arms are too short to even touch yourself… how can you not see the problem in this? :)

 

Changes over the years… Journeying through myself.

How has your look changed over the years? What does this mean for you, and what has driven the choices you’ve made in expressing yourself in Second Life?

For me this has all been about a journey through sensuality, spirituality, and self-identity.

I went looking, and found some of the first images I took of my avatar in Second Life. I’ve put one here next to an image I took over the weekend of my avatar on a new spot of land I’ve got:
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I am actually still wearing one item in common in both of these… fangs. I’m probably the only neko that wears fangs, and one of the few that uses whiskers. And as far as I know… it is still the same pair of them after all these years. Just about everything else has changed though.

Originally I wanted dark skin for my avatar, like I now have. But in 2009 the shade you see on the left was the darkest tone I could find, as a newbie.

Self identity changes over time, and I find it very interesting to look back at the journey of self exploration.

I’m a very introspective person – I self analyze a lot. For me that is a big part of being alive. But its also something I’ve been tossed into by the nature of my existence as a multi-racial person born before that was common or acceptable in the USA. My parents where married the same year as the Loving v. Virginia case and my eldest sibling was born right after the decision in that case came down. There actually was a judicial action to prevent my parents from being together on the grounds of miscegenation (race mixing), and I very much owe my existence to the impact of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr‘s civil right’s movement – which had changed the minds of the right people, including those who helped my parents overcome the challenge that was actually brought by my grandparents…

So thinking on who and what I am has been critical to my sense of self from the beginning.

As is known, I am not ‘African American’, yet my avatar is. But there is a funny footnote to this because I recently found through DNA that I am in fact part African. Yet I grew up under the perception that I was an Asian / Amazon Indian / Caucasian / Cherokee mix. In place of Cherokee, I instead have a number of things from West and North Africa, and the Caucasian turned out to be different parts of Europe than family history had said. So one side of my family has a complete falsehood for every aspect of its ancestry.

Genealogical exploration is a pretty common thing for Americans to get into. We often find surprises. So that’s not the real trigger for me in being introspective. Rather being what Americans consider mixed-race has been the trigger.

I belong to no ethnic group.

When you don’t belong to any of them, all of their various members are very keen to point this out to you on many occasions in your life. It one thing to be the ‘other’ from that other tribe… but when you are the racial equivalent of a ‘stateless‘ person – you have no place to ‘escape back to’. There is no tribe standing around waiting to help me form an identity… I had to carve it out myself through some very rough experiences – some as recent as experiences I have had in some Second Life forum communities. No matter what I state as my ethnicity, I can be called out as a Rachel Dolezal – and I’ve been getting that accusation since I was 5 years old and my mother was trying to put me in Kindergarten… Every action, every thought, every preference gets judged by hostile mono-ethnic people seeking to hold on to their territory.

I am an eternal fake, and because of this I have to get very real.

Most people take for granted the vast bulk of their identity, cultural, belief system, even appearance. I have no such luxury. A person gets very introspective very fast in this situation.

So Second Life has been a blessing for me as a place where I can literally put on a skin, and explore an identity. Through that I learn so much about myself. I find where I stand on issues, how I can shape my sense of sense, and I can stake out an identity that people cannot take away from me and tell me I don’t have a right to because I’m not enough of their kind or another kind of blood for their liking.

And it has been a long and well worthwhile ride.

I didn’t come to Second Life to explore myself. I actually came here to get some goodies for the Poser 7 Launch event, and found out to my disappointment that the goodies were just goodies for a Second Life avatar. That is why my first attempt at Second Life only lasted 2 days in 2006.

One day in 2009 I was bored, and I was browsing or reading something that mentioned Second Life. So I wondered if it would load on my then computer. I looked through my files and found my old avatar’s name, guessed the password (or the forget password stuff, I don’t remember) and logged in. I spent a few days wandering around.

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Close to day 3 of my return to SL. I got by, barely. I think its funny that I had a newbie prop on down below… Even back then I was keenly aware of how lacking the SL Avatar is.

The 2009 image above is actually my 2006 avatar and not Pussycat. Pussycat was born about 10 days later, because I very strongly didn’t like the avatar name I had.

On coming back in, I had randomly clicked something and found myself wearing a Neko avatar. It was a very crude free one – but it clicked right away.

I had found myself. Now I needed to name myself. I tried a dozen variations on neko, cat, pussy (erm…), kitty, catnip, calico, even koyangi (Korean for cat) and gato (yeah, gato made it into my mind but not as far as they keyboard because that is just way too manly), kittylicious (yeah… /fail) and yes, pussycat.

Somehow even though Pussycat was taken with a few other last names, it was not taken yet with ‘Catnap’… So off I went. I’m glad I ended up with this name… its very fitting for how my personality in SL wavers in different directions. Saying just parts of my name, or where you put the emphasis, can lead to very different meanings. Some people like to just call me ‘PC’ or ‘Cat’ because typing it all out makes them a little nervous I guess. Actually its a handy name for seeing how someone else is seeing you…

So I began in 2009 in SL looking for the sensual side of things. The image I used to start this blog was not the first one I took, the first one was a bit more… intense and unclothed. The 2016 image I used is unclothed, but is a normal pose.

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You can see the beginnings of some of my current style. There are my teeth, my eye color, and a lighter shade of red hair. And the face is actually not far off from the dials I use now. I used to love that little video game remote, and kept it on every outfit for a good year.

I spent a few months exploring that scene. I think a lot of people who come to SL have to go through that and they either stay with it or move on. I more or less moved on. But in the journey I also realized that I really like the idea of being clothes free, minus the weird politics of naturists.

I even tried exploring the adult erotic side of Second Life. But I quickly learned this was not me. In part due to encounters with S/m people. It took me some time to be able to relate to people from the S/m community because I am very militant about Equal Rights and even a roleplayed expression of submission or dominance bothers me. That has not changed, and will not change. What changed for me over time was learning that these people truly feel their relations are equal, so I accept them for themselves while recognizing that I am on a very different path.

However a major break for me on the erotic side of Second Life was just realizing I found these little cartoons engaged in ‘the act’ to be comedy, while others were trying to truly express themselves or have an experience in those moments. I felt it would be rude of me to be laughing while the others were feeling something more.

After a time I started to try and expand my perspective. I think finding the shop Bare Rose was key here – it was and is a Cosplay place, so there were all kinds of outfits in radically different styles, and they were cheap. At the time usually 150-250L for a full outfit. So each time I bought one, I could put it on, run around, and see if it felt like I’d found a new me. After I went premium most of my weekly money went to this shop throughout much of 2009.

Proportionstesting

Here you can see that even by July 15, 2009 I was already obsessed with fixing the bad proportions of the SL avatar.

I went premium about a month and a half back into SL. That really changes things. Premium is a commitment. Its not just renting a spot somewhere, once you’re premium you can see the bank statement, you’ve “subscribed” to this “free to play MMO” and there’s some land out there somewhere that you now have the privilege to buy, and once you… you’ve got to make sure you got your money’s worth out of it. So once you have your own land you end up spending a lot of time on it, and that time is often alone.

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I didn’t know at the time that it was my own trees there that caused this home to be super laggy at ground level. This was taken on July 21, 2009. Probably a few days into owning the place. I remember being so proud of my build, and that I had managed to find a rare roadside spot. Back then not much land was abandoned… The unpaved road is actually the bottom right corner of the top image – diagonally butting up against where I put plants.

Wandering through various Second Life clubs led me down the path of a spiritual awakening. Reading a random notecard left outside a Reggae Club got me curious. It was a card about Rastafarians, but it wasn’t very thorough. When you’re introspective the simple answers never work for you – so I went off to read more, and came back realizing I was always Rasta. Now Rasta is very much a leftist movement, not a liberal one. There is a marked difference that many people don’t understand. But it is also militantly non-violent, unlike your usual leftist movement – and that can lead many to mistake it for a liberal movement.

But I’m not exactly on the same page as the Rastafari in every aspect. I’m more fond of the sensual, and I take the Equal Rights and Justice angle to mean such for everyone. So as Apple Gabriel says, Give them Love.

Rasta is not a unified doctrine, unlike many organized religions. Each of us finds our path within that core concept of Equal Rights and Justice and the recognition of Yeshua Christ, Ras Tafari (Haile Selassie), and the holy land of Ethiopia – home of the oldest branch of Christianity, that predates the Catholics.

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I didn’t start with cats for Furry. No, I made an alt just to get a furry look, and started with this.

After a journey through ‘am a furry’, I moved away from nudity. This was some time after finding Rasta, but before I was openly talking Rasta everywhere I went in Second Life.

Furry is interesting to me, in that I see the spiritual nature of an anthropomorphic self. A sort of ‘totem animal spirit’ if you will. In that regard I enjoy furry avatars a lot. But I’m not a part of furry culture at all. It baffles me, and I humor it. No opinions either negative or positive though.

Furries are very often gender ambiguous though (hermaphrodite avatars), and that is something I don’t relate well to at all. It is a common theme in Second Life, and I am accustomed to accepting it, but I don’t relate to it. I’m a leftist, but I’m not exactly a liberal.

PussycatCatnap_Egyptian

Now there’s a riot of themes.

I tried using Second Life to explore Rasta. I made a club, I wandered through events and other clubs, I made groups, and so on. Nothing really ever clicked here. There are a lot of people wandering around in SL with Rasta themes lightly in their look or venue – but they’re closer to what Rasta calls a Rentafari. A Rentafari is a male prostitute with dreadlocks who services white tourist women…

So yeah, that is an insult. What I found in SL was a bunch of people who equated Rasta with a black version of Cheech and Chong, for white people. Go to Reggae clubs, and they are usually run by white women, or Rentafari men.
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So I kinda pulled back a bit from Second Life as my journey through Rasta kicked off.

Some might see me as appropriating by having a black avatar, or even in that my religion is Rastafari. But you should look to a person’s intentions, words, and deeds before going down that path. Snoop Lion is a black man who has been rightfully called out as appropriating Black Culture, while Jah Sun is a white man who is very real in where he stands.

When I go down a path, I go deep. As an introspective person I can’t just grab the surface of something. The Rentafari experience will not do for me because I see it as fake and that spoils it. I may love running around as a naked avatar, but I also have a very deep sense of the spiritual – and using religion to sell sex rubs me wrong. Even if I at the same time embrace the sensual in the spiritual.

Its a bit like the difference between Leftist and Liberal (think Malcolm X vs. Martin Luther King Jr). You might not see it, but its there, and pretty concrete. The sensual and spiritual go together naturally, but to use one to sell the other is a perversion of both.

So when I came back around to being active with Second Life, I started toning myself down a bit. That’s more or less where my break with nudity first occurred. In part also driven by the virulent racism I encountered on the SLU forums. I decided to stop engaging in some circles, and to alter my image a bit.

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That’s about when I started calling my supposed shop in SL ‘Zion Kitty’, as a way to announce that I was looking at things spiritually now.

Rastafari Building in SeconfLife
Not too long after I even put up a Rasta ‘Church’ build based on a temple in Ethiopia. Churches as a building / location is not a Rasta thing, and that is why I eventually took that place down. People should gather anywhere to be spiritual, and without leaders. Pastors, Rabbis, Imams, and Priests are all mankind’s method of stealing spirituality from one in order to give political power to another.
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That is something I’ve always known, and had to remind myself of.

Second Life has been a very useful tool for me in exploring identities, and in finding my spiritual self. It has also re-affirmed for me the notion that the spiritual is not in conflict with the sensual unless one is used to sell the other.
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And that is a bit of why I have returned to being openly nude in Second Life. I see nothing wrong with this and my spiritual side. And whereas I have a lifetime of people challenging me for my mere existence in my real life, in my SL I can stand up and say that and hold to it. It is me, it is how I genuinely intuit my reality.

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As I recently noted in my post about Nudity in Second Life:

For me, nudity, even public nudity, is a spiritual thing. I suspect that confuses a lot of people. We are born nude, we are created nude, we return to a natural state when this life ends.
. . .
For me, the nude form is a spiritual form. Yes it is also a sensual, in fact erotic form. And these are all by intent, by design. By Jah will. We are made to love each other, to strive for community, caring, and an appreciation of the beauty of life and the beauty within each other and ourselves.

And while that is not necessarily something I learned in Second Life, it is something I hold firm to. And it is something that Second Life is perfectly suited for letting me express.

Fake non-person with no ‘branded identity’ who belongs to none of your ethnicities that I am, I come here to get real.

This is a part of my journey.


So where are you headed?

 

 

 

SL, why U <3 me so much I can't standz it…

What happened SL? Why U <3 me everywherez?
For years I wanted to have land on Nautilus. Beautiful layout, all double prim, nice grid, etc. But then the Heart Baron arrived, in force… The blight of SL…

Nautilus

This is all over SL too:

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The problem is not just in the map blight, Heart land builds tend to be very intrusive, blocking the view for all neighbors:

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Back in my day (adjusts corn hat, shakes granny fist at you kids) we kept this kind of a build to a skybox.

There is actually a train moving in a circle inside that glow up there, but I think that might be the person behind the Heartland plot here… This is just one example – and in this case Heart is justified. But this kind of build is also often found all by itself, in the middle of a river, by a road, or whatever.

Polite people don’t litter the ground level up like this.

You wanna do big blightly builds that destroy the view for 2 sims around you… do it in the sky, where nobody else cares.

Its why the outside of my skybox looks like this:
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Because its over 3000m up, and up here, I can be like that and put my business all up in your business because your business isn’t up here anyway. :)
(OK, I did just do this this week… It used to just be solid black)
This is my way of saying – the lady in that box is weird, give her some space up here. I take pains to put my skyboxes at heights none of my nearby neighbors are actively using. And if I get one who feels the need to start rezzing near me after I put this here, those walls get magenta and glowing… :P

At ground I give my neighbors this:
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Because I want to give them the respect of being able to enjoy their land.

 

But heart baron doesn’t respect Second Life, or its users. They clutter up the place with ugly builds that destroy the experience of everyone around them.

They even often have banlines up:

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Sigh… Last time I came here most of the parcels around had banlines and it was tricky moving around unless you walked on the road. This time it was just this one, but it comes and goes. Usually unrented Heart lots have banlines on… But that policy might have changed. I hope so…

Thankfully thus far Zindra is only lightly infected by this plague:
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I don’t think there is anything that can be done about this… but it is very frustrating nonetheless to see SL stuck down this path. A failure in vision to have better zoning rules, and a lack of rules about blotting out the map (as far as I know), has led us to this point.

Over the last year, I’ve started seeing more and more mainland competing land barons use the same tactic: blot the map, put up walls around your lots, and raise banlines…

It is leaving much of mainland looking rather ugly. It has only made limited inroads into Zindra though. At least so far.

Who would ever have thought Zindra would be the ‘nice respectable looking’ part of Second Life?

 

Clothing Optional and Nude Friendly signs.

Nothing special today, just promoting a simple item I’ve put up for sale. Complete with naked pic to catch your attention. :)

I have some signs people with nude friendly venues can put on their land:
NudeOnlyAndClothingOptionalSignshttps://marketplace.secondlife.com/p/Clothing-Optional-and-Nude-Only-Signs/8349227
These are $15L for the set of both, and come as Copy/Trans, plus two texture standalones that are Copy/Mod in case you want to use the image in your own sign design. Clicking them will give someone a copy of the signs (but not the standalone textures) and ask if they want to open a website link to this website.

If you get these signs, please tell me about your venue so I can add it to my page on Nude Friendly place in Second Life. In fact if you don’t get these signs, please also tell me so I can still add you to my blog’s list of nude friendly places. The more places I have on the list, the better.

I am working on an article of more substance though, and one not even about my recent fixation on nudity – but about something totally different.

Page on Nudism and Nude friendly places in Second Life

I’ve added a “page” (untimed article, so it doesn’t show on the wordpress timeline) to my site here on the topic of Nudism and nude friendly places in Second Life. In future it will be found on my list of callout links on the side of the blog.

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When I was new to Second Life, naked avatars were everywhere. Mainland was full of people running around nude either in a liberated state or in some form of kink-wear. Two very different communities, but each sharing that same space in the Second Life social dynamic.

Nudity in Second Life seems to be a rarer thing now. The Terms of Service have not changed, but the Second Life community has. It is not all too different from any other fad I guess, including Neko – which was everywhere when I joined, and now its rare for me to find another Neko.

I’m hoping I can either stir up some interest, or get some help in finding places to go that I have overlooked.

So, enjoy the full page, and send me some suggested places.

 

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